Flower Speech

Whatevers and whatnots.
Rulers and servants.
Bigger chairs with arm rests
tired legs and tired arms
maybe
how to videos
describing how to make a
how to video

blank stares.....

Maybe a mission of mine
is to learn to...
put think....
images....
together to form a ….
thing I want to do?

You know?
I'm living in each moment.
Staring at the floor
time is going.
Or is it when I'm looking at a clock
that seems so fast...
It is just so hard to see your self,
to hold a mirror to your life,
not only looking,
but of your times of doing
and not doing
and falling over
and to really get a good look at them.

One thing that is alarming is to see yourself on film,
to hear your voice through a speaker.
What if you could see your childhood in a movie theater.....

And how does one really live?

I ask myself this daily
and think
“Well maybe if I could travel,
at least move away,
or If I had more money I could do such and such”
but really
if I were to have more money
and to be somewhere different
things may not change at all.

No

it still hurts my eyes to look directly into the sun,
and I can get cold.
I find the best days
are the ones
where I find a wholeness to myself,
a inner connectivity
between the mundane movements